酱紫 Hanna Violet 酱紫

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Being Alone

I get to be alone.

No interruptions.

High functioning.

Highest functioning.

Just me and my view o the world.

I am

My greatest therapist and my music teacher.

My closest friend.

My cheerleader.

If I invest in my best self, is it selfish, or just self love?

Why is self-love considered bad?

Well, to be selfish is considered bad.

What does it mean to be selfish?

What is the difference between self-love and selfishness?

Hmm perhaps it is like parenting. Like different parenting styles.

In both camps, I am just tying to do what’s best for myself.

But the fear of being labeled as selfish (a deadly label in such a socially interconnected society) is petrifying.

But selfishness is believing that harming others is what is best for you. It’s the belief that it’s okay to push others down to get yourself up. A truly selfish person wouldn’t be offended by that label and is unlikely to be self-reflective about their impact on others. They identify heavily with their constructed image of themselves.

Self love is spending time internally for so long that I realize that I am also a person worthy of love.