So Tired

I’m tired of being dismissed because I’m

too young

too small

too weak

just a girl

I am well aware that I can’t save the world

alone

that’s why I’ve been begging for help

for years

please just /read/ what I have been writing

please just /listen/ to what I have been saying and singing

please just /look/ at what I do with my time

before you tell me to

take some drugs and go back to sleep

call me crazy

call me naïve

call me immature

call me manic

call me sick

call me stupid (though I recommend checking out my test scores before trying that one)

tell me, like my Accelerated Physical Sciences teacher in high school, that it might be better if I let “one of the boys” be the project leader.

whatever you need to say to make yourself feel better about the fact that you are too (afraid? insecure?) to help me make the world better.

sorry, that was rude.

but I am angry

I am fed up

I won’t give up

I can’t give up

until I’ve made a difference with my life

I am the opposite of suicidal

I am desperately grabbing for the few remaining hours of my life

squeezing them for what they’re worth

change is coming

with or without us

I’d rather ride the wave

than fight it

i’ll fight for peace

i’ll fight for love

i’ll fight for joy

and if you’re not on my team,

then for god’s sake,

just stay out of my way